Saturday night

...and the deep restfulness of shabbos is over.

But I did have a lovely shabbos.
A local shul had services,dinner and speaker---that was lovely.
And I dared to wear a dress of a kind I had never worn before: sleeveless, cross-over bodice, full-ish low-calf skirt...bright 40's-ish floral print.

Today, everything went slow...
friend joined me for lunch
read
walked
some calls to/from friends
slow

and I did not open the laptop until ten o'clock this evening.

I miss havdalah with Zalman, as I missed shabbos with him.
I miss his presence in all the things we used to do together.
And still I do them:  
I still make the bed.
I still go to Eldorado Springs with the 3-gallon glass bottles to get the drinking and cooking water.
I set a peaceful and lovely shabbos table;  I light candles and send blessing to all members of the family. 
I will have finished all cooking and put boiling water in the pump thermos.
During the day I will have eaten a small breakfast, read the Torah portion, watched the visiting birds in the garden, shared shabbos lunch with a friend, walked by Viele Lake, read, dozed.
I notice that without him the Shabbos Nap often slides off the schedule and out of my mind.
No fun alone.
I am also grateful for the things I am forbidden to do on shabbos:  a blessed release from the panic-inducing content of emails these days.  The laptop rests until well after sunset, resulting in a sizable shrinkage of aggravation.

Blessings for the coming week...