Last night, at the Conservative shul, they held a Tu B'Shevat seder, with the different fruits, and the different wines...All of it a kind of origin-and-sensory-awareness exercise that lifted me out of the worries of last week and into shabbos for real. It got even better: I was one of the last to leave, and as I stepped outside into the yard between the shul and the running creek, I looked up and saw the most magnificent full moon with a large rainbow-ring around it. I remembered a song Zalman loved wishing someone "a halo 'round your moon", and finally sat on a tree stump and looked at that beauty for what must have been half an hour, singing quietly to the moon and its rainbow-halo. Then, of course, I came home and wept, missing him.
Today I honored the trees by taking a long slow walk in the Open Space near the house. When no-one else was walking near to hear me I told the trees how beautiful they were, and thanked them for their persistence and their patience with us, and their generosity to the birds and insects and animals. And I got to meet lots of other people's dogs,who were polite and genial to me but really mostly interested in other dogs. And to see a stunning hawk circling nearby.
When shabbos was over, I sat for one set at a nearby cafe where Art Lande and two other musicians were playing. Art introduced the set by acknowledging out loud the many varied and extreme feelings occasioned by the election, and said that they were not going to forget or avoid that in their music tonight. How wise...
The first set was so full and rich that I left during the intermission, came home and digested, and after a while, opened the laptop and checked to see that the world was still here, all its problems intact.
Since they changed the format on CaringBridge, I do not know how to answer a comment from any of you privately any more. (It used to be easy.) So, Jane Drucker, this is for you: when you see your neighbor, Andrea M., please send her my warm regards. Some years ago, I attended the "Cabaret Camp" at the Perry-Mansfield Center for the Arts in Steamboat Springs, and she gave me some very valuable advice, which I have partly followed.
Wishing us all a good and fruitful week.