I keep trying to get off line earlier, and then get caught...
Tonight, what snagged me was discovering I had unintentionally gravely offended a family member who dislikes talking politics with those of very other opinion. (In my family of origin, not talking was not even among the options considered; sparks flying were okay.) I am sad to know that I hurt someone I care about--- and perhaps not-talking for a while is wise, since I tend to see the current circumstance as potentially seriously and adversely affecting the continued viability of our planet, and I never have been good at keeping my mouth shut.
On the bright side, I received a link to sign up for "the most essential actions" to take each week.
I think it's a major mitzvah that someone was willing to compile this. I have been spending hours daily, and my own work has been in a state of suspended animation. Here is the link for any of you who could use it as well:
I dislike how concentrating on politics-and-the-fate-of-the-world currently narrows rather than expands the experience of my internal world. I have not yet learned how to navigate my internal landscape well enough to balance inner with outer, contemplation with right action. And I certainly have far to go to be able to effect the clarity and peace I sometimes experience in meditation or davvenen when I am acting in the world.
Still, I am nourished by beginning the day with some sort of prayer life, and ending it that way as well. With effort, I sometimes remember to tap into that place---more deeply than surface or mere habit---throughout the day. I see the many blessings we are enjoined to make throughout the day as consciousness-wakers; but alas, even they can be relegated to mere habit.
Funny, isn't it---how a practice that was meant to wake us up can be done in such a way as to manage to remain asleep.
Wishing us all deep dreams.